Have you ever been in a situation that you thought was somewhat insignificant, but ended up finding out that it was quite significant to someone else? I have, and I would like to share it with you.
At the age of twenty, the doctor discovered a Dermoid cyst on my left ovary. My left ovary had barely escaped the bacterial invasion that caused my hysterectomy at age eleven. It was somewhat risky to leave the ovary in my body because of the rapid pace the bacterial infection was spreading, but the doctors decided it was worth the risk.
This ovary became the one thing in my mind that “kept” me female. I know that is quite ridiculous now to say that, but I was so young when all of this nonsense happened. Even at the age of twenty, I struggled with making sense of my “female-hood”. By the time the cyst was found, it was too late. My survivor ovary could not survive any longer. The decision was made to remove it.
The surgery was scheduled to happen on my 20th birthday. Yes,I lost an ovary on my 20th birthday! Before I go any further though, I should explain that I am not exactly a great candidate for laparoscopic surgery. Let’s just say that my insides are a little jumbled around and there is a tremendous amount of scar tissue. All of my major surgeries have been done the “old-fashioned way”; meaning, cutting right down the middle of my abdomen. This surgery to remove my ovary was not any different, so naturally there was a lot of prep work that had to occur before the surgery.
I was admitted to the hospital in the evening and stayed up most of the night before my surgery talking with my roommate. She had her gall bladder removed and was in a great deal of pain. I could not see her as the curtain was pulled the entire time. We were both on pain medication, but talked about our medical histories and thoughts about life in general. Of course, my medical history was a little more colorful than hers. The next morning, she was gone before I got a chance to see her.
About three years later, when walking out of a college class with another student, the topic of my surgery came up. I do not even know why the surgery came up, except maybe to explain my absence from classes. Partly through my explanation of what all had happened, she stopped dead in her tracks, turned to face me, grabbed my arms, and said, “Caroline, You are the one.”
She went on to explain that her very good friend had her gall bladder removed and was feeling depressed and sorry for herself. A young woman was admitted to the bed beside her. Her friend shared that this young woman had been through so much and was still trying to be positive about health and life. She never got the chance to see what this person looked like, but strongly felt the young lady was put in her room for a reason, and that reason was to help bring her out of the self-loathing slump she had been in.
That young woman was me. I do not take credit for any of this. I really do not even remember my exact words said to her or what all I may have shared. Instead, I believe that the Lord placed me there at the right time and in the right circumstance to bring comfort to someone else. The credit belongs to Him.
I decided to share this because of the potential impact all of us can make in the lives of others. What may seem as insignificant events or simple conversations might just end up being exactly the things that someone needs to hear or witness. We are all witnesses of a loving Heavenly Father. He is able to use all of us to share hope, love, and our lives in a way that will glorify Him and help raise up humanity.
So, next time you think that conversation you had with the person standing behind you in the grocery line did not mean anything, think again. You never know how the Lord will use your words to lay out His action to reach someone else.
May the words of my mouth and the meditation of my heart be pleasing in your sight, O Lord, my Rock and my Redeemer. – Psalm 19:14