Sometime before I knew what my plan to become a parent would look like, I heard a song that I just fell in love with. I’m not a country music fan really, but the song “In My Daughter’s Eyes” by Martina McBride stuck on my heart. I heard it on a television show and truly thought that one day, if I ever got to adopt a daughter, this song would mean so much to me.
Here I am now, the mother of a son and a daughter. Our adoption anniversary for our daughter is this coming Monday, February 11th. She has been “legally” our daughter for three years now; although, she felt likes “ours” the moment we met her. For our son’s adoption celebration, we made a movie of images of him set to a song about adoption. For our daughter’s celebration, we chose the song “In My Daughter’s Eyes” for the background music for the video we made of her.
In honor of our third adoption anniversary, I thought I would share the words to this song with pictures of her.
I see who I want to be,
In my daughter’s eyes.
In my daughter’s eyes, everyone is equal.
Darkness turns to light, and the world is at peace.
This miracle God gave to me, gives me strength when I am weak.
I find reason to believe in my daughter’s eyes.
And when she wraps her hand around my finger.
Oh, it puts a smile in my heart. Everything becomes a little clearer, I realize what life is all about.
It’s hanging on when your heart has had enough.
It’s giving more when you feel like giving up. I’ve seen the light, it’s in my daughter’s eyes.
In my daughter’s eyes, I can see the future.
A reflection of who I am and what will be.
And though she’ll grow and someday leave, maybe raise a family.
When I’m gone I hope you see, how happy she made me.
For I’ll be there, in my daughter’s eyes.
The part of the song that talks about hanging on when your heart has had enough always gets to me. There were times growing up in the shadow of infertility that I thought my heart could not stand anymore. I never considered throwing in the towel as an option for me, but, there were moments throughout my adolescents and adulthood where I thought I could not take anymore heartache.
Now, I know that hanging on is worth it. It is worth it to have hope for the future. It is worth it to strive to achieve what your heart’s desires are.
It was so worth taking the leap of faith that led to foster care and adoption.
It is in my children’s eyes that I see why this journey we call life is so worth it.