Dear (Foster) Momma of a Stranger’s Child,
You are back there again, aren’t you? You are back at that place of frustration. Two steps forward; then, three, maybe even four steps back. You are tired of being tired. You are worn out from being worn out, and yet, you get up each day, put on the unseen mask of bravery, and enter the mission field that is within your own home.
Others say to you, “I could never do what you do.” Sometimes, though, you wonder if what they mean is, “I would never do what you do.” When you hear these words from others, you are not really sure how to respond. A part of you feels the compliment; yet, another part of you feels a twinge of anger. You may even wonder, “Why couldn’t you do what I do? Why wouldn’t you?”
Dear (Foster) Momma of a Stranger’s Child, you are a non-celebrated soldier in a battle not of your own making.
When you started this journey, your lenses were colored with excitement, hope, and joy about the path to which you started on. Now, after witnessing the distressing, painful, and tragic sickness that is child abuse, your lenses are dusty. You still believe in hope. You still get excited. You still have joy when celebrating the small, yet significant, steps that the children and birth parents are making.
Yet, you know that something has changed deep within you. You know that there is no turning back to the person you once were. The welfare of children, and the despair within our own backyards, is something that will stick to you for the rest of your days.
Dear (Foster) Momma of a Stranger’s Child, you are changing. Your heart is turning to the things that breaks the heart of God.
There are times when you wonder if you are really making a difference. It seems like just when you finish cleaning up one mess, another one pops up. You look at the beautiful, breathing, living mess in front of you, and you get angry. You wonder what the little one in front of you would have been like if it had not been for the horror of abuse, the tragedy of neglect, and the pain of being invisible.
Your anger subsides, and you return to the thought that we were all (and maybe still are) beautiful, breathing, living messes. You remember the days before you became a (Foster) Momma to a Stranger’s Child. There were times when you took two steps forward, and then, three or four steps back.
There were times when you thought, “I could never do what they do. I would never do that.” You thought of the other soldiers and warriors in the battle against child abuse; yet, you may have never seen yourself on the front-line of this war. You know that your Father in Heaven put your here, but…there are times when you question why He did.
Your faith has been challenged. Your prayers have been heavier than usual. Your cries to the Lord are filled with the salt of your tears. Still though, you return to the belief that your actions may go unnoticed by those around you, but they are never unseen by the same God who created You, and the beautiful, breathing, living mess in front of you.
Dear (Foster) Momma of a Stranger’s Child, your faith is being stretched. Sometimes, it hurts. Sometimes, it feels like He is not there. Sometimes, you feel closer to Him than you have ever felt.
Just when you begin to wonder if you are really making a difference in this world, or start to question just how significant your role is, or you are grief-stricken time and again by the ashes of despair in front of you, you remember that great things come from the ashes. You know that your Savior chose to walk with those to whom are often ignored.
Dear (Foster) Momma of a Stranger’s Child,
Just when you feel like you cannot continue…
You see more steps taken than ever before.
You feel more brave than you ever have.
You witness the transformation of lives.
You have a breakthrough in challenging behaviors.
Your heart begins to heal.
Your soul recognizes this mission field to which you are called.
You remember that beauty can rise from the most broken pieces of life.
Dear (Foster) Momma of a Stranger’s Child, YOU are taking steps. YOU are brave. YOU are being transformed. YOU are making breakthroughs. YOU are healing. YOU are a missionary. And…
YOU are the beauty that is rising from the ashes.