I’m tired. I’m tired of pretending that I’m not tired. I’m tired of getting up each day and going to a job that I know exists because people abuse and neglect their children. I’m tired of worrying about whether or not there will be enough families out there who want to take in kids who have suffered great trauma.
I’m weary. I’m weary from trying to shield my children from the news of the day. I’m weary from the knowledge that humans willfully damage each other, kill each other, and downplay the importance of one another. I’m weary from the frustration that Christians often worry more about politics than people, or at least, give that impression.
I know that part of my weariness comes from the ups and downs of the human experience. People are killing each other for their ideologies, perversions, or greed. Children are left abandoned on the streets to suffer at the hands of evil. Fathers are turning away from their families to seek what they perceive as greater things. Mothers are choosing wickedness over their own worth. People are forsaking compassion for their passions.
Weariness has been on my mind all week, and yet, I fully recognize how lucky I really have it. I’m not a single mom working three jobs to keep food on the table. I’m not a small child living off of scraps in a third world country. I’m not homeless. I’m not sick. I’m not hungry. I am loved.
While meditating on these things, I looked up Scripture that specifically address weariness and rest. I know there are many more, but here are just a few that I’d like to share.
Exodus 33:14 –
And He said, “My presence shall go with you, and I will give you rest.”
Matthew 11:28-30 –
“Come to Me, all who are weary and heavy-laden, and I will give you rest. Take My yoke upon you, and learn from Me, for I am gentle and humble in heart; and you shall find rest for your souls. For My yoke is easy, and My load is light.”
“My soul finds rest in God alone; my salvation comes from him. He alone is my rock and my salvation; he is my fortress, I will never be shaken.”
“Yes, my soul, find rest in God: my hope comes from him.”
“Peace I leave with you; My peace I give to you; not as the world gives, do I give to you. Let not your heart be troubled, nor let it be fearful.”
Be still before the Lord and wait patiently for him; do not fret when men succeed in their ways, when they carry out their wicked schemes.
In my opinion, the last verse I am sharing is the one that turns that fading flicker in my heart into a flame. It is the one that renews my hope for things to come, and strengthens my resolve to continue yearning for a world where compassion leads. It causes me to strive to live a life that continues to breathe love. It especially reminds me that in this world of chaos and confusion, the only true rest and peace in this restless world is found in the glory of the Lord.
“These things I have spoken to you, that in Me you may have peace. In the world you have tribulation, but take courage; I have overcome the world.”
Thank you Father for the Blessed Assurance of You.