God deserves an Oscar! The way He scripts, produces, and directs our lives is better than just about any Hollywood version of the latest headline or novel. He has written us with great richness. His works are emotive. His set (the world) is extraordinary, and his story-lines are filled with drama, passion, love, and loss.
I love the thought that adoption is a predestination set out by God Almighty. It is truly awe-inspiring to know that while I was still being formed in the womb, He had already written the script of my life and my children were written into it. Talk about having a purpose and a design! It is almost unfathomable to think about it. Yes, sad and tragic things had to happen in all of our lives so that we would be together, but God knew what He was doing. The fact is that we all are together and that is good enough for my soul.
I am filled with wonder every time I think about my children and their lives. How are their lives going to affect others? Will they adopt or foster children? Will they trudge through uncharted territories to reach the “unreachable”? I hope so. If their mission field is here at home or in a far-off corner of the world, I pray they grow up with the knowledge that God has designed them with a passion and the whole word in their runway.
For the most part, this aspect of my life – the medical/barren part – has always been something I’ve kept to myself. I’m learning though that the more I speak about it, the more I write about it, and the more I share it with others; the more God reveals to me…not just about myself but more importantly about Him. I used to wonder what my purpose was. Why in the world would He allow me to lose the ability to have babies? I don’t think that anymore. I know now that my story – better yet – His story written for my life, is exactly what it is supposed to be. My children are proof that God’s plan is perfect, His will intentional, and His mercy never-failing. My God has truly blessed me through all of the suffering.