Lately, I have found myself praying fervently for open doors in my life. I have asked for open doors that will lead to both personal and professional opportunities. What I have failed to do is pray for closed doors. Yes, I said closed doors.
Maybe prayer should go something like this,
“God, shut that green door of envy that I’ve been walking through lately.”
“Shut that door of my temper that tends to crack open on those I love the most.”
“Shut the door to my yearning for things to go my way, and not Yours.”
“Close that far too comfortable door that is always ajar to the feelings of resentment towards the actions of others…even towards Your children.”
“Father, shut that door that leads to impulsive decisions that end up causing regret.”
“God, close the ugly door of hypocrisy that is present in my life.”
“Hammer that door of self-doubt shut. Seal my worries, and sense of inferiority away.”
“God, shut the door that opens up old wounds once healed over. Close that door to my own vision of my imperfections.”
“God, please seal that door that leads me down a road in which I lean less on my faith in You.”
“Loving Father, please, forever close that door where the pain of the past keeps creeping through. You, Father, You are the healer of my past, present, and future. You are more than able to put away the things that tear me down.”
“Close that door that allows my own insecurities to persuade me into believing that I do not deserve anything better; especially forgiveness.”
I wonder how my life, and maybe yours, would be changed if we all started praying for shut doors, instead of open ones. An unbeliever might think that Christians are supposed to be perfect, or that our lives are easy, or naive, or whatever one might think. The truth is that all of us, Christian or not, struggle with choosing to walk into situations that negatively affect our lives.
As a Christian, I still struggle with self-doubt, a quick temper, envy, resentment, selfishness, regret, hypocrisy, painful memories, lack of true reliance on the One I believe in, and insecurities. If I were to tell anyone otherwise, it would not be the truth.
So, my hope is that instead of praying for open doors to which my will would happen, I will start praying for the closing of doors that distract me from the faith to which I stand on. How about you?